bpd-hellfire:

when i think about bpd from a medical standpoint and read articles and research about it, intense emotions and mood swings are always defined. you go from extreme sadness to extreme elation. you get very angry very quickly. you feel easily disheartened. it’s absolutely right but the problem i have with it is

i never know what the FUCK i’m feeling

i definitely have a physical ache in my chest but is that sadness?? i feel the adrenaline in my veins so i guess i’m mad?? why do i feel like vomiting?? is this an emotion?? is this just one emotion?? what the hell is going on??